Discovering sluthood - sharing about my past

[hardpoke]

*pitch tent* camping mode now

[Wonderboy333]

Another good story shared my sister..

[playplayonly99]

Ok guys so I'm going to talk about something that I've never really told anyone in my life. But I'm sharing with all of you for some reason. I guess talking about it to strangers will help me process some of what I felt/feeling.

So I went overseas to study in the UK. The first guy I ever loved was an ang moh I met in my first week in uni, let's call him Kyle. Kyle was a nice guy on the outside but behind closed doors...he was a monster.

I was attracted to him due to his looks, his charisma, his brains... And plus I was a Chinese girl in a foreign country and I thought it was so cool I had a British boyfriend. I thought I was blessed to even have the opportunity to date him. So I let him have his way all the time. I let him do whatever he wanted to me. Looking back, even though I thought it was consensual at the time, I definitely didn't want it.

After a few months, he asked me to move in to his room, which I gladly did. When I was there he strictly controlled everything that I wore. That means only things that turn him on like short skirts and dresses, low cut tops, etc (even in the dead of winter). That means that already from the start my reputation around the campus was that of a slut.

Then on to the sex. We had sex like frequently, and initially it was really fun....but it got to the point where we were doing it too often for my liking. Like once every couple of days is fine, but sometimes I'm tired or having a bad day and even though I'll tell him, he'll still ask me to strip down and spread my legs. I'll let him do anything to me, any hole. I kept telling myself I wanted it, I wanted it, even though I was trying to hold back tears. It came to a point where sometimes I will wake up with my shorts and panties pulled down and him stuffing his dick in me, and I said to him can he stop and he said no, so I just let him fuck me until he came.

There was a point - somewhere six months in to the relationship I think - that I got so submissive that he asked me to go on birth control because he wanted to cum in me, and I didn't even think twice. I just went to get it. And from then on whenever he wanted to cum, he was allowed too. There was one memorable occasion when we were out shopping; he pulled me into a handicapped toilet and fucked me in the pussy and came in me, and we continued shopping. I had cum running down my legs for the whole day.

How did it end? Towards the end of the relationship (about 10 months) I became convinced that he was cheating on me. I did a really bad thing which I felt really bad about, but I went through his phone. I wished I didn't. I found out that he had been sharing pictures of me that he took while I was sleeping, either naked or half naked. He posted it in his group with his other guy friends. Some of it had my face in it. That completely broke me. I packed everything out of my room and left back to my old room, and completely blocked all communication from him. I sought some support from some friends who were angels - they protected me, made sure that Kyle never approached me again, and let me into their friend group even though I did not hang out with them in months.

How did this affect me? Initially I swore of men and sex, and wanted to become celibate lol. But as I had more time to process it I thought fuck...how many people have seen me naked? With my pussy and face in the same picture? I walked around campus and wondered who had seen the photos and fuck...it turned me on. It turned me on knowing that my naked body was out in the public consciousness lol. I guess that's when I learned I was an exhibitionist.

[MasterDan]

Originally Posted by playplayonly99

Ok guys so I'm going to talk about something that I've never really told anyone in my life. But I'm sharing with all of you for some reason. I guess talking about it to strangers will help me process some of what I felt/feeling.

So I went overseas to study in the UK. The first guy I ever loved was an ang moh I met in my first week in uni, let's call him Kyle. Kyle was a nice guy on the outside but behind closed doors...he was a monster.

I was attracted to him due to his looks, his charisma, his brains... And plus I was a Chinese girl in a foreign country and I thought it was so cool I had a British boyfriend. I thought I was blessed to even have the opportunity to date him. So I let him have his way all the time. I let him do whatever he wanted to me. Looking back, even though I thought it was consensual at the time, I definitely didn't want it.

After a few months, he asked me to move in to his room, which I gladly did. When I was there he strictly controlled everything that I wore. That means only things that turn him on like short skirts and dresses, low cut tops, etc (even in the dead of winter). That means that already from the start my reputation around the campus was that of a slut.

Then on to the sex. We had sex like frequently, and initially it was really fun....but it got to the point where we were doing it too often for my liking. Like once every couple of days is fine, but sometimes I'm tired or having a bad day and even though I'll tell him, he'll still ask me to strip down and spread my legs. I'll let him do anything to me, any hole. I kept telling myself I wanted it, I wanted it, even though I was trying to hold back tears. It came to a point where sometimes I will wake up with my shorts and panties pulled down and him stuffing his dick in me, and I said to him can he stop and he said no, so I just let him fuck me until he came.

There was a point - somewhere six months in to the relationship I think - that I got so submissive that he asked me to go on birth control because he wanted to cum in me, and I didn't even think twice. I just went to get it. And from then on whenever he wanted to cum, he was allowed too. There was one memorable occasion when we were out shopping; he pulled me into a handicapped toilet and fucked me in the pussy and came in me, and we continued shopping. I had cum running down my legs for the whole day.

How did it end? Towards the end of the relationship (about 10 months) I became convinced that he was cheating on me. I did a really bad thing which I felt really bad about, but I went through his phone. I wished I didn't. I found out that he had been sharing pictures of me that he took while I was sleeping, either naked or half naked. He posted it in his group with his other guy friends. Some of it had my face in it. That completely broke me. I packed everything out of my room and left back to my old room, and completely blocked all communication from him. I sought some support from some friends who were angels - they protected me, made sure that Kyle never approached me again, and let me into their friend group even though I did not hang out with them in months.

How did this affect me? Initially I swore of men and sex, and wanted to become celibate lol. But as I had more time to process it I thought fuck...how many people have seen me naked? With my pussy and face in the same picture? I walked around campus and wondered who had seen the photos and fuck...it turned me on. It turned me on knowing that my naked body was out in the public consciousness lol. I guess that's when I learned I was an exhibitionist.

Yes, it is arousing to control what a girl wears. Especially controlling which part of the skin to be reveal. Somehow or rather, I felt that you missed those intense sex and public humiliation.

[rubbishboy]

Pitched tent, fire started

[kungnguyen]

Nice update TS. Wish to read more exhibitionist stories .... TIA!

[playplayonly99]

How I got into exhibitionism....

I started with small steps at first. Like going out clubbing in a dress with no panties. Or like walking from the shower to my room in my dorm with just a towel. Leaving my curtains open when I change. Masturbating in the common shower instead of in my room. Tame things in comparison to what I'm willing to do now, but I still remember the rush I get. My heart will be pumping hard, my head light headed, and I'll get instantly wet. I loved it. I loved that my naked body could be seen by others. I loved the attention. After I knew my nudes were seen by strangers I didn't seem to care about modesty anymore. When I went to party I was the wild one now instead of the conservative one. My Christian friends disapproved about my behaviour. I thought I was still being a good Christian because I was active and participated in church. But on Sundays I could feel judgy eyes all the time.

A couple of acts in the early days that I remember fondly

1. We were pre drinking in my friend's place before going to a club. I was wearing a short black pencil dress. Someone had the great idea of doing body shots, and everyone was taking turns. I wanted to have a body shot off me, but someone said it's not as fun because my stomach wasn't exposed. I told them I didn't care. I pulled up my dress till right below my breasts, showing off my white thong underneath. I lay on the table and had the body shots done right off my nude stomach, effectively just in my panties, in front of a crowd of about ten. Everyone cheered. I instantly got wet. For the rest of the night all the guys wanted to talk to me (no, I didn't have sex with anyone that night)

2. I went out completely nude under my winter jacket. The jacket was only just long enough to cover my butt. I walked to the grocery store, then around the campus for a bit. When no one was looking I unzipped in for a short while and admired my nude body under the moonlight. I contemplated rubbing my wet pussy there and then but I was worried that someone would catch me, or worse God would smite me for my horrible sin lol. I went back to my room to masturbate instead.

[playplayonly99]

A few people were asking what I usually wear at home, so I thought I'll show - usually T shirt with no bra with panties like below.

[CDNsa]

Originally Posted by playplayonly99

A few people were asking what I usually wear at home, so I thought I'll show - usually T shirt with no bra with panties like below.

You have a nice figure. Thanks for taking time to share your story

[DiAprilani]

Originally Posted by playplayonly99

A few people were asking what I usually wear at home, so I thought I'll show - usually T shirt with no bra with panties like below.

Nice share sis. Do you wear thongs/gstring at home?

[Asta5x]

Originally Posted by playplayonly99

A few people were asking what I usually wear at home, so I thought I'll show - usually T shirt with no bra with panties like below.

Good effort on your AI generated picture.

[playplayonly99]

Originally Posted by Asta5x

Good effort on your AI generated picture.

There's some warping on my mirror that makes it look weird. This is the front. It's not AI.

[hownow]

Originally Posted by playplayonly99

There's some warping on my mirror that makes it look weird. This is the front. It's not AI.

can u show us your pokies?

[Naka_Timo]

Originally Posted by hownow

can u show us your pokies?

Upped +165 for you.

[robapok]

From then on my sex drive went on overdrive. I don't know if it's puberty, or that cause I was usually half naked at home so it was so easy to touch myself, but I found myself rubbing my clit almost every day - sometimes even twice!